How Do You Find Purpose When Life Feels Hopeless?

[Music] I feel like if you if you go through a lot of trauma and you're struggling, it's like you're kind of in this gutter and if you're going to come out of that, you need something some sort of attractor. >> And I think that we call that purpose. >> Yeah. >> I think you need a purpose that that's going to suck you out of it. How did you find purpose? Like where did you find purpose? I just found purpose in realizing that, you know, I didn't want to live the the life that I had seen not only my myself and my siblings, but even other family members were living. I realized early on that this wasn't for me. When I was 7 years old, I was struggling so badly and so hungry and my my friends were going to the ice cream truck and I was like, "How in the hell are they getting this money? We're in the same hood. Where's the money coming from? They got nice shoes, nice pants, you know, they got basketballs and soccer balls and all this stuff. Yeah, they got a line of credit. >> Hell. Yeah. You know, I'm like, where are they getting this? >> So, I took all my broken toys one day and went door to door and asked for donations from the neighbor's parents. I said, "Look, I'm just trying to get some money for the ice cream truck. I'll just take a penny, a dollar, a nickel, whatever you have for my toys." When I squared the block, I had raised about $13 and change. And that's when I when I looked at that money, I said to myself out loud, I said, "Oh, it's going to be me that's going to save me." I knew it. I was like, damn, it's if I think about something and I act on it, I can get a different reality, a different result. For me, that was the beginning of everything.